Mannion wrote a brilliant post
today about why (certain) conservatives feel free to cast the first
stone. After reading it, though, there was something that was niggling
at me, and I couldn’t quite put my finger on it for awhile, until I
worked through the two things that came to mind as I read Mannion’s
post…
First was that post I did a long time ago asking the question
What Scandal Could the Bush Administration Not Get Away With? The
consensus was that there really wasn't one (oh, to be wrong—the bliss!),
and one of the notions that came up several times was that, caught with
his pants down, Bush could appeal Bakker-style to his base, to good
Christians across America, telling them he was a sinner and asking for
their forgiveness. It's not hard to see (or it wasn't then, anyway) how
easily it would have played out, with him becoming a tragic hero,
flawed but brave. And so, I think there is a sense of sinfulness, and
being sinners, among the type of conservative Mannion describes—to one
degree (disingenuous though it may be) or another.
The second
thought was of a sign outside a church near our house that drives Mr.
Shakes and I both nuts. It says "If you can't take the heat, stay outta
hell." And the reason neither of us likes it is that it seems to be so
flippant, so indicative of one of the things that I don't like about
certain religious types, who seem to be of the "confess on your death
bed" variety, treating religion and faith as a get out of jail free
card—as if eternal salvation is not a pass/fail test, but something you
can kind of cram for in your final moments and scrape by with a D. Staying out of hell, versus earning a place in heaven.
After thinking about why those two things were evoked while reading Mannion’s post, I finally got my bearings. It's the why of it that was bothering me. What's missing is the second layer of why behind the why that Mannion adeptly addresses:
The moral calculus decent people measure their behavior by is this:
Some acts are sins. People who commit those acts are sinners. I have committed one of those acts. I am a sinner.
These
conservatives probably think they use the same measure. But they
don't, because they start with the belief that it is impossible for them
to commit those bad acts because bad acts are what others do. Crime is the act of others. Sin is the moral failure of others.
So their personal moral calculus winds up looking like this:
Good people do good things. Bad people do bad things and bad people are the others. I am one of the good people. Therefore the things I do must be good.
This
is why if Jesus were around today and a woman taken in adultery ran to
him for protection and he said to the crowd, Let the one who is without
sin cast the first stone, forty-six Republican adulterers would bean her
with rocks.
What's missing is the born-again stuff.
Born-agains,
like Bush, have a different attitude about this stuff than, say,
traditional guilt-ridden Catholics or Lutherans, or even your average
atheist. There's a sense of accumulation among the latter—the
feeling that life is a continuing thread, and bad behavior may be past,
but hasn't disappeared. Believers in souls might suggest that each sin
leaves an indelible mark; absolution may wash the soul clean, but its
shape is forever changed by the dings and dents of living a mortal, and
hence imperfect, life. Non-believers might say that your mistakes stay
with you, even after you have made amends, and leave a mark on your
psyche, in your memory, on a strand of time. Whatever the language, the
principle is the same—our flaws are a part of us, and it's usually
considered a good thing. You’ve learned. Built character. When
we fall in love and find ourselves, on a lazy weekend morning,
investigating a new and mysterious naked skin, we ask about the scars
our fingertips find. How did you get this one? In the same way,
we come to know who a person is by finding out about the bad things
that have defined them, as well as the good that’s ever more readily
apparent.
Born-agains start with a 'clean slate' somewhere in
life, and many of them mistakenly use the 'rebirth' as an excuse to
ignore all opportunity to learn from their past mistakes, often denying
them completely. They don't just see you and I and everyone else as a
sinner, a criminal, separate from themselves; they see themselves
in two pieces—the sinner, the criminal, the dead self that was bad, now
gone through being born again, replaced with the new self who is good,
and God-full, and gifted with the ability to avoid the same pitfalls
that the old self knew so well.
It's their inability to reconcile
their lives, to incorporate the old with the new, that creates this
dynamic. When I fuck up, the only concern is fixing it. My slate ain't
been clean in 31 years; I'm not especially worried about a new chalk
mark. Bush, though (and those like him)...well, they intend to keep
those slates clean. They carry around their erasers, fastidiously
erasing any sign of a mark on their shining slates and bemoaning the
states of ours, messy as they are. The only good slate is a clean slate.
They can't see the artwork that the rest of us see, finding beauty in
each other's flaws and pain and mistakes and scars. It’s not only why
born-again conservatives feel free to cast the first stone; it’s why
they cannot admit they are wrong, why they hate us, and, most
tragically, why they hate themselves.
Melissa shut down Shaksville in
August 2019; I've save a copy of this salient piece here against tthe
day when Shakesville disapopears. Of course, I too will disappear
soon (being 76 and having reality knocking on my door). So lone and thanks for all the fish....
